I know I said I've moved . I'm posting this post on both blogs . I'm nuts . bear with me .
I've been running around the school quite a lot for the past two days , settling the scholarship applications and such .Haha .. I bet the teachers there think , "Boy , this kid SUREEEE loved the school . Can't get enough of it for one day !" . Truth to be told , I am contented with what I got 8 A1 2A2 1B3 ( est sucked) . Though mak doesn't share the same p.o.v as I do :( ..She insisted and persisted that I pay 50 bucks to get my EST paper remarked . It's weird , most of the students in my schools get straight A1s for EVERYTHING else except EST . I don't know ... Me ? Let bygones be bygones . Sure straight As will look nicer on the forms and sound nicer to my folks' ears .. straight As ..but then again , I don't live to please other kepohchi makciks and ah sohs . I just hope I can get the course that I want and succeed in it .
Yesterday , when I went to school to settle some stuffs , I bumped into my form 4 and form 5 teachers :) My face beamed with satisfaction when I muttered my spm results to them . And their face lit up too ! hehe ..As much as they wanted to hide it , I can see how surprised they were . yes . yes . I'm a plain - average - jane in school . and urmm ..pretty defiant too :D .. lol .
But the ones who were the happiest to know my results were Pn Mahani and Mr Phua , when I came up to them to thank them , wow . the word is just WOW . It's as if I just told them they kena lottery :P lolz ..and the best part was when Pn Mahani almost got all teary and looked me straight into my eyes and said softly ," You know what , I always knew you could do it . You worked hard and you deserve this .I'm so happy for you :) "
All the TV-less nights , all the MSN-less days , and all the entertainment-deprieved weeks have all paid off after seeing the happiness and joy etched on my parents face . Seriously !
Other than that , the school was repainted again . inside out . It looks much nicer now . Haha ..and today , just before I knocked on the door to Mr Thong's office , I heard them talking about me :P . Mr Thong and Pn Azlina . I strained my ears but can barely make what they were saying . :P . it's something about my results .. i think . whatever . After seeing my results , he claimed that the Pemeriksa in-charged of EST for our school is a cranky old perempuan yang bujang -_-" since almost everyone got a B3 for EST .
And while waiting for dad to fetch me , I walked alone to the roti canai stall across the busy road . urm .. and I almost got hit by a white sedan car :P imagine my life being taken away for one stupid roti canai . how tragic .
Watching One litre of Tears costed me one baldi of tears yesterday . Every single episode made me cry , not mere sobs . The drama was great , you can actually feel the fear, frustration , sorrow , regret and what-nots that the characters had to put through .Yeah ..it's a sad drama , based on true story , of a girl named Aya Shoune .. but I can guarantee that watching it will change your perspective on life .. and in a way it makes me feel lucky and more grateful for what I have now . btw , watching 6 episodes in one go is a BAD idea . haha ..by the time I was done , my eyes were all red and puffy .
Another thing from the local cnn , if you were selected to participate for NS , the gov. will pay you 300 ringgit , but if you SO-badly-desperately wanted to be part of the NS particpiants , YOU are the one who have to pay the gov. 300 ringgit . weird ,eh ? pay 300 to be tortured and tormented .. hmm .. I'll pass .
You know how it feels when you want something SO much that you’d do or give ANYTHING just to have it even if it means you can only have a quick hold of it . But then reality strikes you hard on your head , and tells you “ Oi !! it’s beyond your reach lah wei .Get a grip of yourself” .
that’s exactly how I’m feeling right now .
Been pretty crappy the entire day , horrid mood swing . blergh =P
1. Leave permanent markers by the dry-erase board. 2. Ask whether the first chapter will be on the test. If the professor says no, rip the pages out of your textbook. 3. Hold up a piece of paper that says in large letters "CHECK YOUR FLY". (At Least for the Male profs.) 4. Address the professor as "your excellency". 5. When the professor turns on his laser pointer, scream "AAAGH! MY EYES!" 6. Relive your Junior High days by leaving chalk stuffed in the chalkboard erasers. 7. Sit in the front, sniff suspiciously, and ask the professor if he's been drinking. 8. Correct the professor at least ten times on the pronunciation of your name, even it's Smith. Claim that the i is silent. 9. Sit in the front row reading the professor's graduate thesis and snickering. 10. Feign an unintelligible accent and repeatedly ask, "Vet ozzle haffen dee henvay?" Become agitated when the professor can't understand you. 11. Wink at the professor every few minutes. (Hey you might even get a date if he/she is cute.) 12. Every few minutes, take a sheet of notebook paper, write "Signup Sheet #5" at the top, and start passing it around the room. 13. Start a "wave" in a large lecture hall.
Definition of Diplomacy
- The ability to tell a person to go to hell in such a way that they look forward to the trip! (hehe ..Leslie , u should learn to be more diplomatic :o) lolz
A college student's job application
DESIRED POSITION: Reclining. Ha ha. But seriously, whatever's available. If I was in a position to be picky, I wouldn't be applying here in the first place.
DESIRED SALARY: $185,000 a year plus stock options and a Michael Ovitz style severance package. If that's not possible, make an offer and we can haggle.
EDUCATION: Yes.
LAST POSITION HELD: Target for middle management hostility.
SALARY: Less than I'm worth.
MOST NOTABLE ACHIEVEMENT: My incredible collection of stolen pens and post-it notes.
REASON FOR LEAVING: It sucked.
HOURS AVAILABLE TO WORK: Any.
PREFERRED HOURS: 1:30-3:30 p.m., Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday.
DO YOU HAVE ANY SPECIAL SKILLS? Yes, but they're better suited to a more intimate environment.
MAY WE CONTACT YOUR CURRENT EMPLOYER? If I had one, would I be here?
DO YOU HAVE ANY PHYSICAL CONDITIONS THAT WOULD PROHIBIT YOU FROM LIFTING UP TO 50 LBS? Of what?
DO YOU HAVE A CAR? I think the more appropriate question here would be "Do you have a car that runs?"
HAVE YOU RECEIVED ANY SPECIAL AWARDS OR RECOGNITION? I may already be a winner of the Publishers Clearinghouse Sweepstakes.
DO YOU SMOKE? Only when set on fire.
WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE DOING IN FIVE YEARS? Living in the Bahamas with a fabulously wealthy super model who thinks I'm the greatest thing since sliced bread. Actually, I'd like to be doing that now.
DO YOU CERTIFY THAT THE ABOVE IS TRUE AND COMPLETE TO THE BEST OF YOUR KNOWLEDGE? No, but I dare you to prove otherwise.
SIGN HERE: Scorpio with Libra rising.
POST HELD IN HIGH SCHOOL :: 'Pengerusi Jawatankuasa Tandas"
The funeral was so surreal ; from the first glimpse I had of her lying motionless and covered till the very second dirt was shovelled onto her coffin at the cemetary . My first taste of death in my family . Bitter . but with God's help , I managed to swallow the whole idea .
It was like a dream . I know that one day someone whom I hold so dearly to will part away from me . forever . It's just a matter of time such mishap will occur . inevitable and well-understood . but everytime it crosses my mind , I'll do what I could to try ponder on lighter things . as if thinking that by avoiding that very thought , it won't happen . how deceitful .
The thing that touches my heart most is something kept so well in my memory bank . The last time I visited her , I noticed some peculiarity in her demeanor .She was so quiet and seemed so distant . not her usual chatty and cheerful self . and rarely flashed me with her usual grins . I can remember the way she looked at me that day . She gazed at me so deeply ; studying every single creases displayed on my face . It's as if she knew that that would be the last time we will ever get to meet . She studied me from afar .. and sat quietly by her own .. But when the time came when we had to leave home , when I placed both my hands forward to shake her hands ... she straightaway lunged herself forward and wrapped her arms around me tightly .And after what felt like ages ,she slowly let me go and wiped the tears on her cheeks with the back of her hand . It wasn't a 'see-you-again' hug .. but at that moment I can somehow sensed that that was one of those 'final-goodbye' embr aces ... it prodded me to tears ..
I know I'll miss her .She may not be as close to me as she is towards my other cousins ... but she certainly had left footprints in my heart .All the memories I had in Terengganu , especially the one when I spent my raya at her house 2 years ago , when we cooked together in her kitchen ..and the plastic cover on her stove melted away ..lol .. I'll miss her for sure .But knowing that she went away peacefully with family members by her side and the funeral ran smoothly without any complications gave me great reassurance . She had to continue her journey of life after death .One that was planned by Allah even before we were all born into this world . And I could only bid her a silent farewell from the bottom of my heart .
I just heard the news from dad that Tok Mi is sick ..she's my grand aunt .. for the past 3 days she hasn't eaten ANYTHING . :( .. I just fear for the worst .
I've known her since I was born ..she rocked my craddle , baby-sat me and pampered me when i was too young to even remember anything&nb sp;...and she's getting old ...really old .. Dad , me and loqman will be leaving for terengganu this evening ..to pay her a visit .. I just hope this won't be our last .
Life is so unpredictable . I laughed so hard last night ..i couldn't even remember when i last laughed as much ..and things were going on smoothly for the previous months .. and suddenly ,when u least expected .
Valentines Day is drawing nearer .not that i celebrate it . at least not yet . : but a 17-year-old girl like me can't help but think ." how come I was never in any relationship ?"but then come to think of it , most of my good friends have never been in a boy-girl relationship .and honestly there's nothing wrong with them and they do have awesome personalities .but come again .maybe there IS something wrong with me ? haha . i'll cut the crap. but honestly , this whole valentines day hoo-haa s is really getting into me ..at least this year .
.. maybe too much solitude isn't good for me . makes my mind wander off a little too far . and i don't intend to lose my mind again . :P
So , I've decided to extend my love and gratitude towards you guys =) !! thanks for being such great pals to me ^-^ !! Love ya !! *Hugz*
-please be informed that this special valentines day greeting does not come with any free chocolate offer -
lolz =)
hmm ..the past two weeks have been pretty good .. nothing much happened ..just the usual grind .not that i'm complaining . i mean ..no news is good news rite ? and considering that i hadn't been in any mess (yet) for quite some time .. things are okay =..
but i really feel that I need to get out there and try my hand at working ! I'm getting tired of people telling me all the experience I'm missing out just because I'm vegetating at home .
3 main reasons why I'm all cooped up at home wasting my precious youth away - and they were contributed by mum -_-
1. transportation prob .( my parents have problems trusting me with public transportations -and my sense of direction is horrid - ...and.. they're always busy with meetings and such) :P lol
2. Safety reason . ( they already forbade me from jogging around the nighbourhood ) .
3 . Who'll clean the house then ??!! ... -_-
I do appreciate my parents concern ..but ermm ..being over protected won't do me much good either does it ? I asked her before ..
me : Don't you trust me ?
mak : It's not you that I don't trust , It's just the people around you .
-_- ..
other news ...
** Aimran's apartment (my bro) got broken into yesterday ...and his laptop was stolen .. no wonder he sounded pretty shaken on the phone . but he didn't even tell me a word about it . what lah .
** Miss Pushpa retires this month ..or is it last month ?
btw ,she's the only EL teacher in my school and is a great debate-publicspeaking -choral speaking coach ... she's like a female version of Dr. House (the comedy series ) and her sarcasms are very much entertaining too ^-^ ..as long as you're not the one being attacked :P . I'll surely miss her .. *sigh*
**yes ,I'm still alive .sorry to disappoint u :P .lolz
btw , you MUST check this out !! ^-^ it's only the coolest thing !! hehe ^-^
I've been wanting to blog about this since I first got myself behind the wheel ... but the death of my hamster kinda ruined all the delirious feelings I had that day .. anyway , she's gone to hamster heaven and life goes on ..
Wow . the exhilaration of driving is damn thrilling I can't believe i've been missing all the fun when my folks had to drive for 7 hours nonstop to terengganu every year =P lol
Hehe . My dad was more excited than me I think he stood there waiting for me to start my first driving lesson with a digicam . lol . that's the weirdest thing he has ever done (apart from other bizarre things -.-) lol .
The instructor didn't give me any lecture or even explained to me what is a clutch and etc . he just handed me his car keys and asked me to take his car for a spin . wow .such trusts he has in me . *grins* . bwahaha . I wonder if he knows what he's putting himself into =P lol
The whole ordeal lasted for approx. 2 hours . hahaha .. i was so excited , i had a grin pasted on my face for 2 hours straight . lol . am i pathetic or what =P .
During my first driving lesson ..
- I almost got hit by an oncoming car XD
- My driving instructor kept yelling at me . " Eyes on the road !! Eyes on the road !! Slow down !! slow down !! " lol
-Around 10 cars overtook me .
- The car kept dying on me .
but the drive was pretty smooth and I'm getting used to handling the clutch and changing gears .
Name five of life's simple pleasures that you like most, then pick five people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not use things that someone else has already used.
1. Pulling succesful pranks on people . bwahaha ;) .
The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover. Need to mention the sex of the target. Tag 8 victims to join this game & leave a comment on their page saying they've been tagged. If tagged the 2nd time, theres no need to post again.
My own version of it XD
Sex: Male/female .. Male . duh :P
He's not afraid to show his true colours .
He knows how to put a smile on my face and always cracks me up .
He accepts , and sincerely loves me for the cuckoo and eccentric person I am .
He'll stand for me . no matter what .
A good listener and a great conversationalist ( open-minded)
He puts others before himself , charming ,kind ,witty ,caring and sensitive towards others .but not too kind otherwise he'll get stepped on like doormats :P
spoils me with hugs , kisses , gifts and beautiful songs and poetries .
he doesn't mind getting himself dirty just to bake me something or make lovely cards n crafts for me ^-^
Hammie ,my beloved furry lil pet hamster of 3years . should have seen it coming , a hamster's life span only goes around 2 to 3 years . but i didn't expect it to end tonight .
Hah , I had the best time this evening . My first attempt to drive a car during my first driving lesson . It was damn syok . and earlier in the morning I had a great time during our lil family reunion at my grandparents' house .I thought today will turn out to be one of the best days of my life . but .
i just lost 3 chess games to a 15 year-old kid tonight . that shows how my brain has turned into utter mashed potato these days .and i'm not laughing . other than that , I was out of focus in life . My life goal is all blurry and i wasted too much time caring about extremely trivial matters and neglecting what I'm supposed to put my full concern into . that includes me being glued to the computer screen for a minimal amount of 8 hours daily . I'm lacking of self-discipline and I'm ashamed of that .
My time is running out and i'm still at the bottom rung of the ladder .
You know what suck about looking years younger than you really are ? You never really get the respect you deserve especially when I go shopping by myself .
hahahaha .. come to think of it , what happened was kind of funny :P LOL
Once , at alamanda putrajaya (dec '05) *It's a side-pocketed jeans I've been looking for AGES *
me : xcuse me , do you have this jeans in my size ?
moron : *stopped chatting with her friends* I'm sorry , but the kids section is over there .
& nbsp; I would have ripped that jeans in half if it weren't for the surveillance camera .
Once ,at a Handphone shop ( Jusco ) -jan 05
My hp ran out of credit ,so i decided to get a digi prepaid card .. There was this salesgirl/promoter grinning at me "welcoming" me to their shop .I smiled back at her and asked "do u sell digi prepaid cards ?" ...
"yea ,just walk over to that counter "
There was this bright Neon light spelling out MAXIS behind the counter .. i kinda doubt her atfirst ..but then ..
"Would u give me a digi prepaid card ..10 ringgit" .
Person in charge - *looked at me with that WTH look and points his finger at the brightly lit neon letterings above his head * Ermm ...this is MAXIS not digi .
I forced myself an oh-dear-how-silly-of-me-s mile look back at him ..
As i was reaching the exit ,the salesgirl flashed me ANOTHER grin ,
me :"Oh yea ,u were wrong they don't sell one "
S.G : oh no , u went to the wrong counter .It's the one next to it .
Feeling bloody embarassed , i dragged myself there .After all ,i'm in a desperate need for one to call my dad .
This time , the reply from the salesgirl behind the counter was brief . very .
S.G.2 : * took a quick glance at me* ... no
me : huh ? no what ?
S.G.2 : No , we don't sell one .* turned back her attention to her computer screen* .
GAH !!!
She waved and grinned at me AGAIN . - I seriously think there's SOMETHING wrong with her .This time i just looked at her and mouthed "you sure you work here ??! ?
I'm going to have my wisdom tooth extracted soon .and judging from the post Angel wrote ...it ain't gonna be pretty . they'll inject anesthetic iinto my gum , cut it open and practically use a plyer to pull it out . and ..sew it shut with a hook-like needle and a surgery thread .All these done when I'm wide awake .
I'm not up to this ,mind you .Please tell that to my dentist .
Today ,Amilia told me about her job experience ,pretty interesting if u ask me .other than the agony she had to go through (of standing for hours without a moment of sitting ) ..she met this girl ,another salesgirl , a year older than her ( we're 17) ,but already married ,and pregnant !! she's small-sized and is married to a boy her age . 18 . it wasn't fixed marriage or so .Seems that they were couples in school ..and their parents decided to starightaway hook them up for marriage . freaky .
Anyway ,while amilia was chatting with her , her hubby (not boyfriend NOT fiance ) brought her lunch to eat .. and she told amilia that they are having a money crisis .Not only that , she's just a year off school ,already worked as a factory worker ,becomes a salesgirl and got cheated by her employers -who refused to pay her salary- her husband is pretty much like her too ...
It made me think . here i am . lamenting about trivial matters and there she is . worrying either they have enough food to eat for her new family . -not that i never see things that way before - just that ..it breaks my heart everytime i acknowledged such matter ... .i'm so thankful to god . for everything .a wonderful family who puts education as a priority ,a lovely home , loving parents , caring brothers and all the amazing friends i have (yup, that includes you ) . I can't bear the thought of living my life without them .
I love you all . and thank you for making my life SO meanigful .muacks !
yesterday , for the 20th time , the question was asked again . i honestly think that every single of my family members are taking turns doing this just to bug me .
" So , have you finally decided what you plan to do in uni. ? how about psychology ? or medic ? computing seems good ? or etc .. etc ..etc .. "
haha . the truth is i change my career ambition every year . one year it was vet ,like my dad , then another year it was to be a lawyer like my grandfather , then a teacher/lecturer like my mom ..and it goes on and on and on .. indecisive . can't blame me , I'm a libra :P
But after giving it much thought , I've finally decided .If my SPM results turns out to be really good , I'll take international relation , if not , maybe human psychology or veterinary science .. It's so hard to decide , maybe it's because i really don't want to just go for one job and stick to it for eternity . There are so many fun , interesting jobs out there ! If possible , i want to try them all ! LOL .. not literally ..but u get the idea ;)
*TBS has this good effect on me :) lol . such 'angsty' songs makes me happy ^_^ *
japanese word of the day :: USO !!! - you gotta be kidding !!
t'was a pretty good day ... went out with audrey ,siewyee and faridza half the day lunch at McD and watched pride and prejudice at TGV - MrDarcy was as charming as he was in the book - lol ..but i would have definitely liked it better if it was eye-candy Colin Firth playing Mr Darcy rather than Matthew Macfadyen .. . but his acting's pretty good . forgiven .
& nbsp; &n bsp; &nb sp; &nbs p; ;
& nbsp; &n bsp; &nb sp; &nbs p; ; & nbsp;
it's an adaptation of the classic novel itself ..so ..yea ..kinda slow-paced and not exactly for those who craves for thrill and adventure .. bottomline ..if you like the novel you'll like the movie .. it was romantic... though it was lacking in 'intimate-scenes' .. hahaha .. I'd give it a 7/10 .
things are getting better now and the cheerful me is coming back ^-^ ..yay! me ! .. haha ..currently reading ' The Neverending Story' by Michael Ende .. -
i know .. practically everyone has already read it since it was published 80 years ago .oh well .
Japanese word of the day :: Subarashii = wonderful
5.I don’t really like pink ( but my room is pink , the wallpaper is pink , my bed is pink complete with pink comforters and pink pillows , my bags are pink ,my wallet is pink , my water bottle is pink and almost everything else I have is pink).
6.I LOVE swimming . when I was a kid , I used to envy those people whom their houses got flooded during the rainy season . lol .
7. I only listen to SimplePlan when I’m bloody angry . (maybe because of the lyrics .. u know , they put “us” as the hapless ,helpless victims” that the world conspire against .and that does seems true sometimes ) so ,puiyee , now u know ;)
8. I love to race down the escalators in the opposite way its moving . lol .
9. I walk like a bullet train when I’m angry +bad mood .
10. I don't understand why some ppl love sad depressing songs -no offense if u r a fan of em - just that , isn't life depressing enough sometimes ? why do u have to maximize your suffering ?
& nbsp; &n bsp; NuttySiew ,SiewWei , Audrey , Divya and me :)
THIS is the main reason why i miss school SO much ( you don't see piles of homeworks there do u ? haha ) We spent the entire evening together chatting ,watching movies and fooling around before bidding our fare-thee-wells and hugged each other ... our last hanging-out-session before we each take different path in life and leave for different colleges . *sigh*
I had a horrible dream last night . in my dream ,t'was the day of my SPM results ..when they broke me the news that my father was involved in a fatal accident .and 3 nights before that , I dreamt that my mum passed away .
maybe it was the impact of reading Tuesdays With Morrie (TWM). but the dream was so vivid .Even after realising that they were just dreams , I sat up straight on my bed ..and continued crying .
T.W.M talks a lot about death ..we know that death will come and consume us oneday .but how come we fear it so much ? It's about a dying professor who made his last few months on earth into a project ..as if he's crossing the bridge between life and death and he's the one narrating the story of the "journey" ..
Undoubtedly ,T.W.M is among the best book I've ever read .(it's based on a true story btw) I don't think I'll be able to look at life the same way again as I used to ...
I just heard that a friend of mine got molested by her driving insructor .damn it !! her own driving instuctor !!
browsed one of the techno. gadget shops in midvalley yesterday , and when i saw the plasma TVs .. i came up with this ...
[u]Why YOU should buy a 52-inch plasma tv (complete with surround system)[/u]
[b]1. You don’t have to waste money buying movie tickets ![/b] ---Sure , you’ll be 30,000 bucks poorer ,but in the long run ( basically 80 years time) you don’t have to spend that exact amount at TGV .lol . smart budgeting ;)
[b]2.Wow , the clarity-ness of the pic. , the sound system , it’s like you’re in the tv itself :P [/b]
isn’t tv land much better than reality . haha . things go perfectly well there .
[b]3.It promotes world peace !! [/b]
- hahaha more watching --less talking -- less communication -- less MIScommunication-- less arguments-- less war -- *u see where this is going ?*
I’ll include this in my resume for SONY . bwahaha.
hah .I've been pretty moody these past few days . curse the progestrons and estrogens !! it seems like ages since i last smile and laugh whole heartedly .. feeling down :( ugghhh ..this sucks . haha .funny . some of my friends actually think that the only facial expression i have are smiles and grins .. Sarah , my classmate ,even asked me b4 , "i see that u're always smiling and being so happy-go-lucky (in class) , have u EVER been in a bad mood ? "... :? what the ??
On the last day of BRATs year-end , every participant got nominated as something .. haha ... I got " The most Kiddy" BRAT award =P first thought there was some technical error somewhere -though all my groupmates said that i am :? - took this test and it said that I'm 17 but mentally 20 ..!! hahahahahahah .
I know this sounds weird but ..I MISS GOING BACK TO SCHOOL !!! -please exclude the annoying teachers ,excessive homeworks and all the responsibilities i had to carry through during cocuriculur activities - I miss my friends terribly . it's kinda miserable staying at home alone the entire day - no human contact -except my with my parents - Streamyx and Astro became my best buddies .
Anyway, finally bought a new wallet from radioactive :) cost me quite a lot ,but since this one comes with a chain , the possibility of losing it to the loo is 5% ? and bought a new copy of "Tuesdays with Morrie" a bestseller by Mitch Albom and a 2nd hand chicken soup for the soul at half price :) i'll keep myself occupied with these gems this week :) be leaving for KL today and staying there for 5 days
... but the death of my hamster kinda ruined all the delirious feelings I had that day .. anyway , she's gone to hamster heaven and life goes on ..
I can't believe i've been missing all the fun when my folks had to drive for 7 hours nonstop to terengganu every year =P lol
he stood there waiting for me to start my first driving lesson with a digicam . lol . that's the weirdest thing he has ever done (apart from other bizarre things -.-) lol .
especially when I go shopping by myself . 
and ..sew it shut with a hook-like needle and a surgery thread .All these done when I'm wide awake .
.i'm so thankful to god . for everything .a wonderful family who puts education as a priority ,a lovely home , loving parents , caring brothers and all the amazing friends i have (yup, that includes you 
) . I can't bear the thought of living my life without them .
- lol ..but i would have definitely liked it better if it was eye-candy Colin Firth playing Mr Darcy rather than Matthew Macfadyen .. . but his acting's pretty good . forgiven .
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